Interactive Blogging...you name the monster

My latest writing that I was encouraged by a friend to post. You get to name the monster. For me, it's eating disorder not otherwise specified. I shared this at a "writers in-the-round" because so often our issues prevent us from using the gifts that God instilled in us...the enemy lies into our ears and invokes fear. I was nervous, but hooray for being obedient! I dare you to try, to rediscover your talents and passions and dare to be bold...

In the dreariness, In the coldness
I am so alone
My stomach balls in agony
And all hope is gone
I am in his clutches
To the abuser I long to return

But you tell me No
And plead for my safe return
You remind me that I am not my own
The price is paid in full
You meet me where I am at and draw me forward
For that I give you my soul

While I am consumed
It is wholeness that I seek
So often I teeter from enslavement to the free
It is a war that I am in
How can I fight it?
When temptation comes, my mind gives in

But you tell me No
And plead for my safe return
You remind me that I am not my own
The price is paid in full
You meet me where I am at and draw me forward
For that I give you my soul

Where is the strength found that I need to muster up?
I feel so stuck
My frustration mounds as the monster looms larger
When does the struggle end?
I'm ready to give in

But you tell me No
And plead for my safe return
You remind me that I am not my own
The price is paid in full
You meet me where I am at and draw me forward
For that I give you my soul

It is for you that I press on
I would haven given up this futile battle long ago
It is because you told me No
And pleaded for my safe return
Because you already paid the price
And chose to walk me onward
So I choose to go with you, lead me forward.