ADD and ME

Wow... It's been a while. There's been so much that I've wanted to write about. And as is true for those with AD/HD, I've been so overwhelmed with everything that I haven't known where to begin. So perhaps I'll begin with a bit of everything. :o)

Physician Assistant School Status
I'm two weeks into my fourth rotation...wahoo! I'm loving it!!! I've seen everything thing from the King Kong of all zits to dead bodies, cuts, chest pain, hernias, anxiety, miscarriages, kidney stones, colds, flu, mono, broken bones, and much more. Hooray for Emergency Rooms! I've certainly had my hard moments, like witnessing a man being told his wife is dead or telling a 20-year-old she has herpes. But I've also had my good moments when I told someone it's not a heart attack or calmed the fears of the hurting and scared. And hooray for x-ray techs who relocate dislocated elbows in children, although I miss out on the action...but my ear drums get saved in the process.

Eating Issues "R" Us
I don't know if you've ever gotten a little dazed while driving. You look at your speed-o-meter and realize, "Oh, I'm going too fast." So you ease up on the gas pedal only to realize it doesn't feel right. You automatically push down on the pedal in response, and then suddenly discover, "No, wrong direction." and have to make a larger effort to slow down. My latest quote, "You can't slow down a car by pushing on the gas pedal." Well, on to the correlation with food... This week I've found myself admitting that I have got to lose weight. My poor lungs, heart and knees. But for some reason that only translates into eating more. It's weird. Who needs alcohol or prescription drugs when there's food around!? There's much more to be said on the matter but for a later time.

Breaking 5 o'Clock News
My sister is getting MARRIED!!! This weekend in fact, and I'm excited. Her soulmate, Rob, has AD/HD and my sister has entered a whole new world...and no, I'm not referring to Aladdin. :o)

eHarmony and Pudding
Is the proof really in the pudding? I'm not embarrassed to tell...I've been a member of eharmony for a couple of months now (3 for the price of 1 - how could I resist). Everyone keeps telling me I need to "put myself out there." Well, here I am. For all of you science geeks, you thought the odds were horrible for having a baby, try finding me a date!! I truly am just kidding. I know someone is out there...I just need to be patient for which corner to look around. I figure my chances are 1 in 3 billion if you estimate the world's population is aprrox 6 billion, and approx half of which are females (not including China- j/k). One of these days, I know...but the naivete in me thinks "the sooner the better."

The Joys of Radio
I recently heard on the radio a statement from the man whose father was killed doing missions in Ecuador, the one they're making a movie about. He said, "God planned my dad's death. If He could plan the death of His own son, then He could plan the death of my dad." The full statement is even more powerful, but the exact words escape me. Wow. How profound that was, and the pain he had to go through to come to grips with that realization.

The church I attend has a workshop called The Wounded Heart and it's for the sexually abused. They made this statement in the bulletin, "True healing only comes in facing heartache." God never meant for us to do this alone. He never meant for us to live alone, laugh alone, struggle alone.

"Here am I, Lord."

Walking with you in this strange, painful, and yet amusing world... -ber :o)